nar-cis-sism

nar·cis·sism (närs-szm) also nar·cism (-szm)
n.
1. Excessive love or admiration of oneself. See Synonyms at conceit.
2. A psychological condition characterized by self-preoccupation, lack of empathy, and unconscious deficits in self-esteem.
3. Erotic pleasure derived from contemplation or admiration of one's own body or self, especially as a fixation on or a regression to an infantile stage of development.
4. The attribute of the human psyche charactized by admiration of oneself but within normal limits.

Over the last several years I have heard this word, and honestly did not have the full understanding nor had ever met one of these human beings. Well; I believe I have met my first one recently and I pray. 


Lord, help me; I need your wisdom, please open the eyes of my heart so that I can see how you want to love this person and set them free. So far, my discovery of this person has led me to be "still," and pray and trust the Lord to do as He will to minister his grace and love to this individual through me. In the mean time, I need prayer; because this is probably the toughest assignment I have had in my entire adult life,  which is a pretty powerful statement; because anyone who knows me, knows that I have had some incredible "yet difficult," assignments from sweet Papa God/Jesus/Holy Spirit. So I say with humbleness of heart and mind, dear Lord Jesus - please help me. 


As I prayed this morning I received a promise from my daily Promise Box and I kissed the words given to me today, "My grace is sufficient for thee." 2 Corinthians 12:9   


Full context of this promise comes from:  2 Corinthians 12:7-10
The Message (MSG)
7-10Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me, 

My grace is enough; it's all you need. 
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become."

So I know, today when in dealing with this special person; when I am so weak and feel the pressure to have strong human emotions of "hatred for this personality disorder," I will know for a fact that my Papa is making me stronger in my human weakness. So hopefully, the both of us will be blessed. 


YESHUA/Jesus is my Lord!   Awe - selah I will pause and think about this.....